"I can't sleep. I haven't been sleeping for the past few weeks and now in my head I can't help but think, this is it, this is it, this is it...My eyes open wide and I glance over to the alarm clock. 5 am on the dot. I try my hardest to fall back asleep, but my eyes are not listening to me. I am wide awake whether I want to be or not. I turn on will and grace and watch an entire disc before I decide to get out of bed. I open my bedroom door and see the a little ray of sunshine just barely shining into my living room. There is a bench outside on the porch and I decide to go sit and watch the sun for a few minutes. Although I am trying to relax, I can feel my heart beating faster and faster each minute...This is it....
The next few hours move so slow. I remember this part of the day so clearly. I get in the shower, a nice long hot one and wash my hair. I can't help but think, this is the last shower I will take before I am married. We head to my parents house a little early and the table in the dining room is set up so beautifully. Brunch of egg casserole and fruit with mimosas and coffee sure hits the spot. This is it....
Soon we are cleaning up and waiting for the beauty crew. I thought they would never come. The waiting, as I find out later in the day too, is the worst part. I give my girls their gifts and they seem to love them. Pretty soon, all the girls arrive to do hair and makeup. It becomes organized chaos very quickly. I sit on the bar stool getting my makeup done, with my eyes closed and all I hear is little scarlet singing and dishes getting done in the kitchen and women talking and everything happening around me. Surprising I am very calm. At least I know I appear to be on the outside. Inside, my heart is still racing and my head is spinning. This is it....
All of a sudden, everyone is done and we are getting ready to leave. Its only about 1, but a little while ago we got a phone call that everything at the venue is finished. We decide to head to Ellis earlier than planned but I feel good about that. Everyone is grabbing stuff and packing cars and we are off....This is it...
The ride there is only about twenty minutes but it feels like it takes eternity. I think this is the most excited I have ever been about going anywhere and it can't come soon enough. We finally get there and I stay in the car to make sure my amazing groom is hidden out of site. I yell to my dad, 'is he gone?' to which he replies ' oh he is sitting right here!'. I know this is how he is, just being funny all the time and trying to make me laugh. But, this does not make me laugh ' I know you are trying to be funny right now but its not funny and now is not the time!' I yell back. I knew I was being dramatic, like always, but it just came out without me even thinking about it first. Checking out all the decorations, everything was perfect. It was beautiful....."
This is Part 1. More to come soon...
